For I was a New Bee

Tired of hectic life in this world; doing chores at my home, waiting for the drugs; Looking forward for the time, It wasn't only the 4th day which didn't make me happy; Instead day to day crushed my motivation and my lady; Going through the paper, complaining people and haters; Caught under the worst situation, nothing else left but only trust breakers; You searching for true love but all you find is a vamp; Seducing bastards and then doing it under the lamp; They say unexpected intrusion of beauty is what is life, I say screw you and your thoughts 'cause this ain't my life; Our folks were wrong to despair, hard feelings is what they get; What did our sods do, enduring hardships that I bet; Disparaging remarks and blaming us is what hypers me; Dead bodies catching the bullets and I use them to shield me; Trying to wipe them off the earth but it ain't my obligation, For I can't be utterly right but for them it was a desperation; taking lives is what they want, saving lives is what we need;
And our need must be fulfilled 'cause its top ranked than your meaningless deeds; Remember the flap of your torn flag, blasted into fragments; It wasn't a breeze or a gale but they followed their statements.

I TALK...

What can i say? (while staring at the wall) ... He is quite selfish for his own good. He hear and observe those who fulfill his interests. Though, he often respond to the unwanted n unloved on voluntary basis as well. It's like a payback for all his sins and wrongdoings to balance things out (only if it worked that way but it doesn't). He is generally graceful and harmless as long as you don't hurt his ego. But if you belittle him ... he will belittle you. In the end, he wont even bend but he'll ensure your fall ... Of course, there are those, who think they know him enough to understand him and assume that he also knows them a little if not all ... Oh well, I tell them to ask him how to spell your name ... knowing in return it will embarrass him (less) and you (more). THESE ARE NOT MINE but I just love these lines.

My Jackdaw of Rheims

They can't stand the sight of you going through the dark era without a blow. And they really don't know how it feels when you walk in this age with a blindfold on your eyes, and you go through with it with nothing to help you but only your own head and the spirit of exploring this universe and getting the thing out of this deep well which is full of criticism and people who won't miss a chance to ensure your fall. Who won't miss a chance to bring you to their level. They so eagerly search for one little hurdle and throw it in your way which turns you into a hopeless soul with no identity. In that well you are then just another no one in millions. You lose your heart and you get distracted from what you were doing. In fact this is when you turn your back to the road which leads you to success and your Hunger, the thing you wanted at most. You don't feel like taking a U-turn again because of how they clean your mind and then they make you suffer. And what they don't get is actually YOU. They can't think the way you do and neither they strive the way you do . They give you pain at its most and what they understand is that Just because you're strong enough to cope with the pain, doesn't mean that its meant for you and you're supposed to take it. And it is this moment when you actually understand everything, Happiness, sadness, pain, love, philosophy and most of all, LIFE.

#TheyCanNeverSeeYouHappy

And that Night I slept in Her lap

And Now I'm sitting next to her and I want to look at her with my eyes not moving to bits and my Heart Pounding. She went away for a long time, to be honest it was never long for someone else but for me, every second my watch stopped. I lived in her absence too, for she's the one who taught me how to be independent and that the world will never come to help you but to divert you. I'm who I am and she's the one who made it possible, the one who helped me add another word to the dictionary of my life,  "Independence". In these long days when life was moving at the speed of light, I had a nightmare about her but I never exposed the feelings I had after that. It was killing me inside for she wasn't sitting next to me. Now that she's with me, I'm calm and quite and still, for I love her the most.

Dedicated to my Mother.

BLOOD Spatters

Yes I write, I write when its dark and I'm alone. Dark as the blood we see and alone as a caged lion we see. Always busy in thinking to get out of this miserable condition. Darkness and loneliness makes me think, and I think and think and its always about the Present. They say future is Dark but tell them to come here and see, for Our Present is Dark. Blood Spatters everywhere, like we came for this. Aah yes! I hope you got a hint, I'm talking about Pakistan. Yes, our very own Pakistan. Oceans of Blood had flown before it was born. Wasn't it an infant? Yes it was and at that time they said, "Independent State" but Trust me on this, when I say that "It wasn't at all an Independent State". It was Dependent, dependent on its folks, who were supposed to make it Independent. And they did make it one but now again when we see at our beloved country, it makes us hopeless. How can we see it in the hands of traitors and Gigantic Monsters who plunge and attack every place their eyes allow them to see. It was then that our ancestors saw Blood and now again we're seeing that and we don't have to just see them coming. There must be a way to stop them. We must ask ourselves, "Why Us?". Yes, Why Us? and the answer is right in front of us. Its because we lost the three main Morals which were the firm base of this nation, of course Being "Unity, Faith and Discipline". Remember, World is a cold place to live, If you quit you're considered dead. So carry on with what you have, believe in yourselves and things will work out.
#Pakistan